Worthless.

Do you ever feel so worthless, that even though you're having a great time with those who love you, that creeping feeling comes back to lurk in the depths of yourself? Terrible. Isn't it? This past week especially I have been being told time and time again I am not good enough. I'm sitting here, blogging, eating Ramen, and wondering why. Why is it, that people of pessimism, and (not to sound conceited in any respect) people of lower skill than I, get chosen over me time and again, when not only do I work my tail off, I'm pleasant and friendly and optimistic to everyone I come in contact with? It's quite frustrating. Even more so when I should "get over it". As I've discussed, it makes me feel somewhat worthless, yet I can't say anything because I'm supposed to be the one person who never complains and is ready to put a smile on anyone's face, even when no one will do the same for me.

On a lighter note, I've been listening to music a lot. I mean A LOT.  I'm constantly listening to Indie and Alternative music. It's great. Found a guy who is really into some bands I am really into which is cool. What's even cooler is that I was kind of into him before the music thing.
Sorry for the downer y'all, but if any of you can relate shoot me a message on my tumblr, that I will link at the end, or my e-mail: simply.laurel.stone@gmail.com .

Have a Fantastic week my Lovies. :)

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